Monday, November 5, 2012

my sweet pea

My own baby. . .Something I certainly never expected, considered, or prepared for.  Growing up, I never wanted to have children.  I have no idea why, it just was not a need or desire instilled in me.  I was firm, almost adamant in this belief that babies were not for me.  I always assumed I'd adopt if I decided I wanted children.  Then, when I married years ago, I inherited two beautiful girls.  And they became my own.  I was happy and content with them, still not desiring to birth my own.

By some odd fluke I found myself pregnant for the first time at the age of 32.  Completely unplanned.  Completely unexpected.  During the most challenging and difficult time in my life.  I am a firm believer that things happen for a reason.  There is a plan for us all.  This belief keeps me going.  Keeps me sane. Keeps me strong.  I admit, I was terrified when I found out.  But the moment I heard my baby's little heartbeat and saw my sweet pea at a mere 6 weeks, I fell in love.  It's just miraculous. I will make this work.  And I am overjoyed.

6 weeks
7 weeks
9 weeks
12 weeks

I am currently 17 weeks and hoping to find out the gender later this week!  Can't wait to see my little sweet pea, it's been 5 weeks since I've had a glimpse.

"Life is uncharted territory.
 It reveals its story one moment at a time." 
- Leo F. Buscaglia


T@PoppyPlacePdx said...

Oh Congrats :)

Isn't that amazing that you can see your baby at 6 weeks, WOW!!!

Wishing you well with your
pregnancy :)

It is truly amazingly beautiful the first time "Baby" kicks inside you and then there really are no words but "Pure Joy" to describe the emotions you will feel when you first hold your newborn Baby :)

Have a lovely evening,

cheers, T. :)

Adaptable Kay said...

Oh, wow!

I can honestly relate to pretty much everything you're saying in this post.

I've always been dead set against having kids; never really wanted them or felt a need for them.

When it happened to me, it was a complete and utter face-draining-mouth-gaping-open shock and when I saw him later, my heart just melted.

Like you mentioned things happen for a reason (which is my personal motto) and unfortunately my little one wasn't meant to be for now.

Your beautiful bundle of joy IS, though, and I wish you and your family nothing but the best and healthiest wishes imaginable!!

Congratulations :)

Jennifer said...

Thinking of you today!!!!